They walked together in silence. It got to the point where the silence was no longer quaint and comfortable but awkward.
Rick kept having the feeling that this particular moment was a pivotal moment. He knew, from experience, that this probably meant that things weren’t flowing easily, that he was expecting too much, that he wasn’t living in the moment if he was so concerned with the moment. He needed to focus his energy not on the moment and whether it was pivotal in some way, but on future moments. Maybe future moments would help the present moment.
He also knew he just need to stop thinking. Period.
“Where would you like to work tomorrow?” he asked, breaking the silence and breaking the trance he was in. The words “work” and “tomorrow” were so official sounding, so real. It was something of a disappointment but he knew they needed to get down to business.
Sally turned her head to look at him and looked like she didn’t know what to say. Maybe it was a pivotal moment, he thought to himself, but then cursed himself for yet again hoping everything was so pivotal. By definition, if every single step is pivotal, all you’re doing is turning and rarely moving forward.
“Uh, well,” she stammered and turned her head towards where they were walking.
“I mean, we, uh,” Rick started, but had no idea where he was going with that. The awkward silence was deafening.
“Do you want to talk about it in the morning?” Sally asked. “I can’t really think about those kinds of things right now.”
“What kinds of things can you think about right now?” the words left Rick’s lips before he knew what he was saying and regretted them immediately. Give the girl a break, dude! he heard him say to himself in his mind.
“I’m sorry,” Rick started again before Sally could say anything, although it wasn’t obvious that she was going to say anything. He wanted to do his best to just end this day before he inserted his foot into his mouth so often he could start tasting the leather. “Let’s talk about what we’re going to do in the morning,” again he stopped but wasn’t sure what to say. It wasn’t always so difficult talking to women, what was going on? Maybe this whole thing was a bad idea, he thought. “I know we’re both tired.”
“Yeah,” was all that Sally said.
Rick lined up potential questions immediately, his brain could not stop although the rest of Rick was telling him to Just Shut Up! He was going to listen to the majority vote.
Thankfully, they arrived at the hotel and walked inside.